It's here! The last day of 2012. Geez... it's hard to believe how fast years past once you start growing up. I remember as a child I felt that a year took forever to pass, it was like an infinity of days and went on forever. Now I have to be careful not to blink too often, because I swear I will miss something important or the days will pass to quickly. It's funny really, for the first time in a long time I am looking forward to a new year. I used to dread it... the thought of being another year older, seeing more hate in the world, watching friends come and go, my father getting older....But now... I feel excited for something. 2013 is going to be amazing. I can feel it. And it's making me anxious to see what it holds for me and my family.
I wanted to share a few things that I am excited about and a few resolutions that are being made. After all... the best way to accomplish resolutions is to talk about them and have supporters telling you that you can do it! So here we go....
1) Stop smoking. It's seriously killing me. I've been a smoker since I was 15 and it's starting to take a toll on me. I get sick easier, I'm starting to see some lines in my face, and my entire routine and schedule revolves around smoking. I hate it. Actually I love it. Which is how I know it will eventually kill me, therefore it has to go.
2) Start being more patient with my kids. I've come to realize that I am incredibly strict. I suppose it's partially due to the way I was raised, but I want my kids to have a chance to be themselves and not be molded into something I expect or want them to be. I want them to be Teagan and Parker, shenanigans and attitudes and all.
3) I want to get healthy. I want to start eating better and working out. Not necessarily like running and weights (because those two things are not on my fun list) but I am planning on starting yoga. I'm sure my body and mind would love it.
4) Become better with money. It blows my mind how James makes all this money but in the end we spend so much of it that saving is nearly impossible. We want to put $15,000 into savings in one year. That's our goal. And I know we can do it. My trips to Target and Hobby Lobby are going to have to be brought down to a minimum. THIS will probably be the most difficult thing for me. I love my Target and Hobby Lobby.
What I am excited for:
First and foremost I am excited to spend another year with my babies and watch them grow. I get to see Teagan enter Kindergarten in September, and Parker enter Pre-school. Watching them grow is always the highlight of the year. To look back and see how much they have changed in just a short 12 months always blows my mind.
I'm excited to keep trying for baby #3. We finally had a positive pregnancy test a couple weeks ago and it ended in miscarriage on Christmas Eve. Needless to say our holidays weren't that cheery and I've been an emotional wreck. I spent a good week cursing my body and screaming at God for playing a cruel joke, especially on Christmas. BUT... we know it happens for a reason and that at least my body took one! We are looking at is as my body is preparing to carry another baby. So keep trying we will.
I'm excited to make more trips home to spend time with family and my bestest, most important friend in the world. We haven't been home much since we moved here two years ago. Actually, we've only been home 3 times. Which isn't enough. And I miss my father and Amber so much it physically hurts to think about.
I'm super excited to take a Mommy/Daddy trip to New Orleans. We need a get away and neither of us have ever been. Seeing that we only live a few hours away we decided we HAVE to make it happen.
But most of all, I'm excited to have another year with my family. My husband. My kids. My father. Another year to grow as a person, a Wife, and a Mother. Another year to make memories, have arguments, and lots of laughter. Another year to learn more about who I am and what my purpose is on this earth.
Goodbye 2012.... HELLO 2013!